got this from dinah's blog
its like damn sweet..

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty,
he said no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever.
and he said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said:


You're not pretty you're beautiful.

I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldnt cry if you walked away.I'd die.

SO SWEET RIGHT!!
aww :)

anyhow.
suddenly thought of what i read in the papers.
about bill clinton's orbituary.
hilarious..and i think he is one of the most disappointing presidents
though he kept america fine during his time of presidency, having an affair with an intern the age of his daughter at his own accord just banished everything.
and look where george bush's iraq war is heading for.
theyve got the whole world watching in muted screams.

pretty ugly

im listening to vanessa carlton cd now
how backward can i get
but its nice!

Just a day,
Just an ordinary day.
Just tryin to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.
And as he asked if i would come along
I started to realize-
That everyday you find
Just what he's looking for,
Like a shooting star he shines.

He said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand?

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
You'd swear those words could heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And to know he's no stranger,
For I feel I've held him for all of time.

And he said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand
in the palm of your hand.

Please come with me,
See what I see.
Touch the stars for time will not flee.
Time will not flee.
Can you see?

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that boy, that ordinary boy.
Or was it all in my head?
Did he asked if I would come along
It all seemed so real.
But as i looked to the door,
I saw that boy standing there with a deal.

And he said he my take my hand,
Live while you can,
Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand
right in the palm of your hand,
right in the palm of your hand.

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just tryin to get by.

Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.

saw this damn disgusting picture of ashton kutcher.
his image is deteriorating!
thinking twice about keeping him as my ahem husband.
haha.

anyway was in town ystd for chanmalis' outing! :D
was pretty fun, miss all of them ayee.
tings wasnt there tho (as usual haha) so thr was only da mina and dinah.
was originally the first one who reached orchard mrt but
in the end i was the last to meet them
-laughs-

dinah got us roses! yay thanks!
heh. and i almost got a pink heartshaped balloon too
if not for some ah lians who paraded in front of me and got me thinking twice (and thrice..)
not that i wanted them anyway.
SHRUGS
haha.

anyhoww we went taka for crystal jade congee :P
pretty damn good.
waited for ages so meanwhile we went for the mango sales :D :D
the stuff is so damn unbelievably cheapp.
got 3 tops!
didnt see the weird gypsy pants (??) that my sister asked me to find for her.
think they kept all the new goods.
suddenly realise im not in that much of a shopping frenzy like i previously was.
2004 is marking a lot of new things for me. heh.

anywayy waited for what seemed like forever for 21 to flash.
heh and dinah+mina wanted to complain cos their food took such a long time (so that they cld have their dinner for free..) maybe they were jealous that the people there liked da+i better (or so, da claims. haha)
went to the cine arcade..WANTED to play air hockey haha but the machine broke down, right after the weird family played. gossiped about the sister (how typical of us haha) blahblah.

wanted to watch Mean Girls, btw.
but da the Pirated Girl watched alr.
but at least now we know it doesnt suck like Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen and that its 'quite nice'
i cant wait for Spiderman2!
it'd better not be a letdown like harry potter..

took a long STROLL to orchard mrt..
and waited for stj to arrive (with her quite pretty friend :) )
thanks for waiting till the rain stopped, btw! :)
though i sat on disgusting ants that hopefully didnt crawl into my skirt
and she had some weird rash when she went back.
sorry..!
heh.
fun day!

back to school tmrw.. :((
hope i dont get the blues -crosses fingers-
and i now keep telling myself i need to pull myself up
and garner all inner poise and discipline
to get through The Pre-O's Period.
i have to try not to disappoint myself.
:|

Pretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
Pretty baby why can't you see
You're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
For you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
As long as you keep comin' around, oh pretty baby

And I know things can't last forever
But there are lessons that you'll never learn
Oh just the scent of you it makes me hurt
So how's it you that makes me better

ok i shld probably stop vanessa carltoning.

oh and tings called!!
and told me some great news :D :D
im like damn happy now. heh.
EFFERVESCENT.

i have absolutely nothing to blog about
but i just wanted to blog
and crap
so that the first thing people see
wont be moody me.
haha.

ladidum.
tings is back..but she doesnt tell me so.
till i ask.
and im totally fine with that.
she doesnt seem the least bit -
and im totally fine with that.
yea, i am.

Can you leave me here alone now
Cause Im tryin' to get through today
And there's one thing I know
I dont wanna think about you
Dont wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
or think about nothin'
'This time I know, I don't wanna think about you,
Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you
Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you
Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you
Run away, run away.

moody ;(

There's a piece of you thats here with me
Its everywhere I go its everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Well be together for one more night somewhere somehow

silly da and i are like
pretending to be cool.
with our Black language ; peace out dude! let's CHILL this sat.
-gags-
miss youuuu!!
oh wait. its supposed to be
miss you shorty! :D
lol.
or do they have smth else for miss you?
hmm.

out with stj ystd.
reallyreally wanted to study
but of course we didnt
cos i cant study outside.
esp not with her -glares-
we watched the day after tmrw! yea so slow right.
but its quite nice!
scary too.
and i bought 2 tops!! :)
yea only 2 but for someone who hasnt shopped for like, 3 weeks,
its very satisfying.
haha.
and i was like dragging stj around.
i couldve sworn she was bored
though she obviously, denied.
alrighty.
wondering if i should change my layout.
shall meet my sister afterward then come back to study!





//heading nowhere.
everything's changing, everywhere i go out, out of what i know.

++ and im back to a square one,
the one with tentative thoughts in her mind.

lowlowlowdownthere.

i hate this >:(

i dont want school to start ;
nononoNONO

and all her friends tell her
she's so pretty
but she'd be a whole lot prettier
if she smiled once in a while
`cause even her smile
looks like a frown
she's seen her share of devils
in this angel town

But, everything's gonna be all right
rockabye, rockabye

now, she feels safe
in this bar on fairfax
and from the stage I can tell that
she can't let go and she can't relax
and just before
she hangs her head to cry
I sing to her a lullaby, I sing

nice song :)

IM SO DARN BORED.
extreme ennui.
alliteration!
okay stop it.

there's friends tonight!!
yay!! dighfdikhao!
whatever that meant.

as you might have noticed, i edited my prev entry
to add in the Not So insignificant puny people
haha :)
i forgot!!
sorry.
and i hope you got over your hol blues already!
hopeful.

i shall go read the papers..

there's a corner on cherry street

welly bored.
so i came online ..
only to get boreder (??) than ever.

anyway
recap..
was in town ystd to do cip
went to some ulu mall called cuppage plaza
yupp never even knew about its existence.
anyway was
spastically smiling at everyone
mouth was aching!
i conclude that caucasions are no longer as friendly and generous as they were
only met one caucasion couple who still asked how much they were supposed to donate
and the highest amount was only 2bucks!
whatever happened to 10bucks..or even 50bucks..
haha.
kiat was so damn consistent
while i kept taking breaks by standing around and stoning.
after a while we finally FINALLY decided to stop asking ppl to donate
and went yoshinoya to have lunch
then went to meet rol+dinah
and people were coming up to donate money when i was just standing around!
quite amazed.

anyhow after the 4 of us walked from cine to lido to wisma and back to cine
met aileen and wynnie tay and suddenly
we decided to watch a movie together
and it HAD to be Undead..
it was The Dumbest Show Ever.
worst movie of the century award.
there were apparent attempts to imitate Dawn of the Dead
POOR ATTEMPTS.
it tried to be scary .. tried to be funny .. tried to be interesting
and it failed miserably!
and it was nc16!
what crap..
it was like watching a poor quality show in the olden days..
their credits were like cartoon.
we thought we were in the wrong theatre!
everyone was laughing and going What the hell?! and also complaining that it sucked la.
hoobastank is no.9 on perfect 10?? its no.1 on rickdees! tsk.
anyway out of point.
yea.
you dont want to watch the show unless you enjoy watching aliens and ridiculous things that make you roll your eyes till they fall off.

anyhoww..we went long johns to have dinner..
actually only i had dinner
was really weird.
yupyup and we went back.
stayed up to watch the simple life and the next joe millionaire despite my zombie-like condition
haha
sis and i both agree that
paris hilton is v pretty! but she is SO skeletal. scary.

IM SO GONNA GET THE BRITNEY SPEARS SCENT CURIOUS!!

ok extreme boredom drove me i back to doodling..
tatas'

in my sj camp now..the aircon in the ava room is killing me. my toes and fingers are all frozen so its quite hard to type cos my fingers are so stiff and inflexible! they look like theyre having fits or something. okay hyperbole haha. the worst is the flr..its like rock hard! i wonder if my head will flatten if i continue lying on the torture ground. haha i think i sound damn gu niang but its true! my sleeping bag..!! :(
and im really sleepy zzZZzZ
and im really hungry..
i cant help but think that if i were a sim, my mood would be dark red and i would have entered a state if depression. haha.
AND i have to go do 6hrs of cip ltr!!
fainted.
i think kiat+i are gonna fall asleep standing up or something.
guess i shouldnt be complaining
since all we do is sleep eat talk walk about gamble attempt to mug then eat talk gamble eat again .. haha.
our poor juniors.
i realise i dont even know their names :|
yins insists that im still as spastic as ever
which is certainly not true.
shes the one muttering to herself all the time!
haha.
quite stressed about having not enough time to study
-dies-
totally wasted my holidays away!
studied during the second week but the rest..-shakes head-
anyway when i first came to school for the camp and saw yins+kiat i suddenly realised i havent been in contact with my friends throughout the hols!

conclude that i cant study outside!
i can only do like, chem MCQs haha.
watched shrek2!
it was nicer than i thought
was never into cartoons
but this one is so sweet!!
:))

oh i better get off.
mum's coming in 20minutes!

I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!!!
AND EAT!!!!
growls.

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally (X 2)

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

damn nice song right! :)

shit i got addicted to sims again..
played for hours and my previously happy house
became quite a disaster.
the poor papa clarke kent passed away peacefully (not so peacefully..) from a freak accident at home. the inexperienced cook tried to cook dinner for the family but got wiped out by the fire. i forgot to put the fire alarm! and the rest of the family just walked around the house, oblivious! so irritated. was screaming like mad at the comp -faints- in the end clarke got engulfed by the fires which spread across the kitchen. and FINALLY they decided to help put out the fire :| i like papa clarke you know! cos hes very nice and charismatic though ageing already .. and he's the only one who bothers to water the plants and feed his kids .. and he's the sole breadwinner who earned the highest anyone of my sims have ever earned! and he also didnt mind when i busied myself with trying to matchmake the young people and ignored him. he just happily went to water the plants! fondly remembered. heh. i should stop this mad gushing.
anyway.
and his death resulted in the frequent depression of the daughter Lana Kent who would get red just because she was hungry! stupid bitch refused to talk to Jeremy James and continue indulging in their previously blossoming courtship :( got me so exasperated.
and meanwhile the son Ashton Kent just happily flirt around and miss his work when he just got promoted!
stupid family .. pissing me off!
grr.
and oh whats more, they both ignored my orders for them to go to Clarke Kent's grave in their yard and mourn for their daddy.
infilial kids.
tsktsk.
haha sorry la. sis went swimming with at and i have nobody to grumble to.

anyway. stomach growling like nuts
so i decided to stop playing. haha.
eating oreos again
i miss crystal jade and the school food!

im no longer listening to aaron carter now -proudly-
haha.

-announces- i wanna go tanning!! anyone wants to tan too??

sheesh am i bored. i shall get back to mugging..
-yawns-

ennui

yawns.
i feel lethargic.
i can imagine everyone burying their heads in their books right now.
while im just wasting my time, rotting away..

tings is probably on her way to L.A right now..
:(

going er j8 with my sister ltr!
hahaha
yea that mountain tortoise has never eaten pastamania before -faints-
at brings her to restaurants but not pastamania.
i hope she doesnt kill me when she reads this
hee.

suddenly thought of what i heard on perfect 10 last morning.
can you believe there are towns in austria called fucking and vomitville?!
sheesh.
hi there, im from vomitville.

was playing sims last night! (yea was supposed to be mugging :|)
and i built this very homely house with very happy people in it.
thought it was gone when my comp suddenly exited it against my will
BUT! my sister discovered it was still there when she played after me.
haha we are the sims addicts.
i wish i could turn into a sim right now!
then people playing will bother to make me happy when my mood is red.
haha.
fat hope.

cousin's wedding dinner ystd!
wasnt fun like i thought it would be ._.
bored the hell out of me.
the church day before the wedding dinner was better.
talked to my cousins.
who were very entertaining.
esp my v. extremely uh, hyper and high and horny (alliteration!) little pri6 cousin.

discovered a hole in my corn :(
mum claims that it means its healing!
..i hope.
been bearing with it for months.

the hols science lessons are way too taxing.
rushing through like some bullet train gone crazy!
they are teaching a chapter each day consecutively.
how can this be possible??
grr.

can you believe aaron carter's im all about you is still on the top of my playlist!?

anyway.

grr!! i think i just drove my comp nuts downloading all the epebble stuff consecutively! it almost died on me ._. now i gotta download all over again..tsk

nana finefine .. im a mountain tortoise -pretends to cry- haha. i think rachel wld be back with ross too .. she+joey are no longer an item right? i prefer rachel with joey though! haha thats true. but then again. do you expect to do much when the 3 of us are studying together?? travelling all the way to esplanade .. walk around .. take forever to decided where to study .. spend an hour or so actually studying (this includes 15minutes of sleep and talking and obviously eating etc.) and then travelling all the way to serangoon chompchomp. i think we only studied for an hour! printing all the epebble stuff. i think i used hundreds of pieces of paper. and the ink is .. i dont even want to think about it. all the powerpoint slides! and yea i do. i wish for a lot of things who doesnt! and sometimes they are granted but most of the time not..and yet, for some of the wishes that are granted, i wish i hadnt wish for it to happen! heh. crap eh. and no, i dont think there's a scientific explanation for things like that, smartass with practically all the straight As! why u suddenly ask??

i spent like 2hrs++ printing all the stuff for every subject!
-looks at the stacks of papers surrounding me-

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cos you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
When youre happy, it's a mission
And you wont stop 'til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face
I hope it never goes away

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms
So I can breathe

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I love the way that feels
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

ashlee simpson // pieces of me.

blogger is totally lagging!

anyway. just did trigo and
my timetable for the next week
hope i stick to it man.
getting freaked out over the o's
absolutely cannot complete revision
but oh well i try.

cousin's wedding nuptials going on ..
what to wear .. ??

the shooting course today was rather fun!
and i passed twice !
hee! though er .. i woke up at 0815 when we were supposed to meet at 0800
was madly dashing around the house
and luckily my sis lent me 20bucks for the cab!
i actually thought cabs had those atm thingys like the shops do.
whoops.
guess it was the receipt machine that i vividly imagined to be the atm thingy.
the first cab driver was a nightmare, goodness me.
finally reached and was sheepishly looking around for the place
and ms ong came!
she didnt berate me or anything! :)
laughingly asking if i overslept.
i decide that i like her now
haha and shes really cute too.

took the bloody long train trip from bkt gombak to bishan
and the mountain tortoise me
discovered that j8 has changed SO much!
haha
suddenly its like some food heaven!
go check it our yourself if youve been cooped up in your tortoise shell like me.
after changing our minds numerous times and contemplating for ages,
we decided on pastamania!
i love the chicken bolognaise
complete with cheese of course ;)
oh! and i was in the loo and there were these 2 caucasion+chinese mixed kids with their mum
and the mortifying thing was that the kids were going 'i also want to pee leh!'
goodness gracious me.
the epidemic Singlish is spreading wide and far.

fatigue fatigue FATIGUE!

atch its not lack of sleep but rather, being extremely tired.
never been so tired in my life! my entire body's aching and i need to lie down.
haha sound like some ah ma!

saw ths pink cab the other day!
DAMN cool i tell you.
its like those london cabs but its pink!
was awed.
bet none of you have seen a pink cab roaming around spore have you??
haha

as usual im listening to aaron carter ..
haha
rolls eyes, everyone.

having stomachache again!
this morning's was the worst.
:( :(

after the elit seminar and chem lesson (which was kinda taxing) i wenta meet nana and ree! yayy! :D :D miss them! especially doreen tan, whom i havent been talking to for some time..
went esplanade (wasted tons of time as usual) haagen dasz to study! finally finished my chapter of algebra .. but its not like its something to exult about cos one week has gone by and that is all i did!! grr.
seriously need to glue my eyes to my books.
anyway after that went chompchomp for dinner .. met ree's bf .. ate .. yadayada .. spent like, an hour standing around and being really crappy outside chompchomp cos we cldnt decide where to go. was rather fun though. too tired to recap haha.

air rifle course tomms!
sounds qt interesting!
but gotta wake up early agn ..
then im tired agn ..
vicious cycle!
heh.
this reminds me of talks about The Afterlife.
is it really karma and reincarnation?
or is it heaven and hell?
or do we just burn and become ash or just rot in the coffin
and be eternally non existent?
somehow i feel very scared and insecure if i choose to believe in reincarnation and karma.
hmm. well, whatever.
but i never knew we each have 36 000 angels existing in our daily mundane life! -looks at nana-

i think i sound v nonsensical.
anyway i shall go sleep now ..
and hopefully not feel tired tomms.
and also tht my stomachache wld be gone :(
nighty!

i seriously think i need to grow out of aaron carter
but i really like 'im all about you'!
yes laugh for all you want
wonder what happened to him anyway?

the lit test today was really horrendous.
the poem was like, .. fainted.
shakes head!
it was at the very last minute did i discover what it actually meant
and had to alter all my answers
dont think they sound coherant at all!
and i left out some poet's technique
-buries head in hands-

anyway. after that
tings and i headed for town !
:D :D
shopped a great deal
and we went back brimming with satisfaction!
haha.
the Great spore sales turned out to be Not So Great after all.
v few shops that we visited participated in it
and even if they did,
the sales items sucked.
were at sakae playing with the wasabe and sauce and everything (whats new)
and we came up with hilarious 'cooking' methods!
and how to deal with our future EVIL husbands ..
haha.
were v. tired after that though.
and i still am
-yawns-
went for tuition and i saw my cute guy!
ok he's not cute la.
actually he's not cute at all
but he just .. i dont know.
auisyhiwuwhgua
oh! there's smallville today!
havent watched it in ages! :)
yay finally can watch!
the show always makes me happy.
and friends is getting oppressive!
okay i think i over exaggerated
but it def has more Moments now
what with the rachel and joey (yes nana i remember now, finally) issue.

i really feel like im talking to myself.
gibberish.
but i do feel like talking to myself.
so i shall just talk to myself.

i really pity the people who just took their chinese o's!
its harder than last year's dec paper
-pats their backs-
haha doesnt matter anyway
they'll lower the grade.
hear that, freda kwokie girl?

haha and this is for nana okay but your logic of how i must like myself is not logical logic though. -whispers- i like you too!

okay i think im done with talking to myself.
i shall scoot off to watch lana lang!
oohsers.